i am really scared right now. something could be very very wrong and i am absolutely terrified that it is. i don't know what to do or who to tell or what. i find myself thinking about contacting way-old friends about it, people i haven't seen or really talked to in years. for some reason it seems easier than talking to people i see every day. i don't know what to do and i'm scared of the choices. i'm scared of what it means. i don't want it to be true :[