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This week has been hard. The shopping was fun and feeling like we're getting somewhere with things, but other than that it's just been arguments and feeling crap. David told me I had to stop getting ratty with him and sort my attitude out. Personally I think he needs to start listening to my opinion and accepting that sometimes I am right and have good ideas. He wants someone who will agree with what he says, and I am not that person. I think he has to let go of his preconcieved ideas about things and move on. Or accept that when he doesn't, yes, I am going to get in a grump.

Oh well. I made it up a little bit by going in last night to paint the corridor. Mostly because I knew that if I didn't do it, the volunteers certainly wouldn't and my stairwell and hall would be tormenting me forever more.

Today I went shopping with my mom and got in a bad mood because I couldn't find what I want and I seem to be swimming in money right now. Which makes it worse because I can FINALLY buy things and yet there is nothing I want. Yes, I know. I'm completely immature.

After shopping I was totally knackered and went to sleep. I think I have tonsillitis, though this morning I thought it was pneumonia, so who knows. I do like to dramatise things. But my throat is all closing up and my glands feel like they're crushing my wind pipe. 3.30am this morning was not fun, struggling to breathe. Nor was almost throwing up in the shower because of it. Ew. So yes, I slept, which resulted in my dad getting mad cuz I'd said I was going to take Barney out for a walk, but him and my mother went instead. Whilst they were gone I did the laundry and the dishes, tidied Barney's toys away, tidied the house and now I am making a roast dinner to make up for not going out. I hope it puts me back in their good books :[

I was meant to be working tonight but got out of it so I can spend some time relaxing and trying to feel better, but I think even if I feel better physically I certainly won't emotionally. I hate being sick, it really drags me down and makes me feel so depressed, stopping me wanting to do anything. So I'm going to try and spend tonight doing anything I possibly can to try and get over it. We'll see how it goes. Back to work tomorrow night...