Well I didn't get too far in the things I was going to do when I last wrote on here, but nevermind. I found a crochet pattern for a cardigan I liked and have been working on it for 3 days now but am only at row 2! Things keep going wrong! The first time I did it for 4 hours and then realise it wasn't wide enough, last night I realised it was all wonky and just nicht gut, and I am about to recommence work on it again. I WILL do this!!
Stayed at work last night and it sucked. I couldn't get to sleep and don't think my brain turned off at all, and then the guy there was on his own on a business trip and wanted to talk to me all the time. And I don't like talking. Especially not to people I will never talk to again - what's the point? So I was bored and annoyed and wanted to be in bed! Dammit. I wonder how much I'll get paid for that...
On Sunday 14th I planted 12 chilli seeds. They're called Prarie Fire chilli's and are quite hot, but they're windowsill ones so hopefully they'll be really easy to look after and will look pretty :D Yesterday before work I had 4 sprouting and I came back home today to see 6 of them out! Woot. Chilli's are really hard to grow as most of the seeds are duds so I'm really happy about that. Now I need to nurture them just right and we shall rock on with the spicy cooking!
Mmm speaking of spicy cooking, I'm off out for Thai tomorrow with my parents. Yum yum.
Thursday, 25 March 2010
Monday, 22 March 2010
There is no fate, but what we make for ourselves
i am DOING THINGS! probably because I have spent hardly any time at work lately. Or atleast, I've been leaving early. But starting early. So it all works out. Anyway...
Today I finished at 1.30 so came home and tidied. Not that it looks much like it, but I did! My desk has been repaired after my accidentally destroying it the other night whilst looking for my ring, my bedroom has been dusted and tidied and had things that shouldn't be here removed, I have reorganised my cd racks (finally!) and hung two pictures. Now I don't know what to dooo!
Possibly going to walk down to the shop for some wine and snacks, do a couple pages of my last nz sketchbook, and MAYBE paint, but I don't know how time will go. I also want to start on a crocheted cardigan at some point so maybe that'll take place of the painting instead.
We'll see how things go :]
Today I finished at 1.30 so came home and tidied. Not that it looks much like it, but I did! My desk has been repaired after my accidentally destroying it the other night whilst looking for my ring, my bedroom has been dusted and tidied and had things that shouldn't be here removed, I have reorganised my cd racks (finally!) and hung two pictures. Now I don't know what to dooo!
Possibly going to walk down to the shop for some wine and snacks, do a couple pages of my last nz sketchbook, and MAYBE paint, but I don't know how time will go. I also want to start on a crocheted cardigan at some point so maybe that'll take place of the painting instead.
We'll see how things go :]
Monday, 15 March 2010
a huge fucking rant.
I have been having such a difficult time at work lately and it's bringing me down so much, I don't know how to make things better. David seems to have this personal vendetta against me where we just end up fighting with eachother all day. I went in yesterday because Stewart asked me to help out with lunch for Mothers Day, which was fine, but I also had bedrooms that needed cleaning and remaking incase we had anyone arrive asking for a room, otherwise we'd have had none ready. So I get in there and go upstairs to start on the rooms and he has a go at me saying he needs me to do the cutlery - a job I then find out is one he was asked to do. So I polish two trays of cutlery for him, after a good scream, and then go upstairs to do a couple of rooms. Give it 10 minutes and he comes storming up the stairs yelling at me with "I don't know where you are, I need you down in the kitchen, I've already asked you to be down there, you're on the rota for a restaurant shift" etc etc, literally shouted at me so rudely. So i stormed back down and decided to help Stew on hot partie as I had no intention what-so-ever of helping David again. PLUS when he came up he had Claire in the kitchen, and she was meant to be doing the bedrooms, so in effect we'd swapped for a bit and he wasn't even a person short in the kitchen!
So after a good shift of me helping Stew and us doing a REALLY good job, with all the kitchen staff - so proud of them! - I left without saying goodbye to David cuz I really didn't wanna have a chat with him. This morning I come in to find that after I'd gone he'd been talking to Aislinn and Stew about 'what to do with me' - his favorite question of anyone. Fucking drives me mad. What to do with me? Try leaving me the fuck alone to do my job? He was talking to them about giving me a disciplinary, to which Aislinn totally shot him down and pointed out the technicalities of how he actually had to give me a bunch of warnings first, and Stew told him how amazing I'd been on hot partie and how he couldn't have done it without me - I love the staff there! David, after that, changed the subject... on to how I'd been sacked from my old job for doing the same things as I'm doing here.
First off, he has no right to be discussing any of this with my peers - indeed, people I manage.
Secondly - I was sacked because they used me. I had no opportunity to respond to any disagreements they found with me and hadn't caused any difficulty within the job, they just didn't need me anymore. David should not speculate into what he does not know.
So I started off today annoyed, and even more so when I saw the jobs list he'd written for me - with a 'please' as an after thought in a different coloured pen, and a job of "phone the woman I have a meeting with at 3pm and change it to a different day" - I'm sorry, I didn't know I was his fucking secretary?!
Today went well though, he had the day off so I managed to enjoy the majority of it, especially as Andy came in and I haven't seen him in AGES!! We came back to my house to take Barney for a walk and it was yummy :D Good times!
And then I went back to work. David arrived at 6pm to take over, and I asked where our tips were from Mothers Day. He said that it had worked out at £15 each, BUT I wasn't going to get mine because I hadn't shared out the £50 tip I got sent in November.
Now, let's recap.
On that night in November, I served a table of 9 men dressed in tuxes, clearly out to have a good time. They were a fantastic table, so much fun! We had a great night, AND I helped with the rest of a very busy restaurant as well. They left us a £50 tip on the night, and a couple of days later they called up work asking for my last name. David gave it to them, after working out why they wanted it, and days after that came a cheque from them to me. TO ME. The envelope, presumably, was dressed to me, but it's difficult to know because that part magically got shredded before I could see it. Strangely though, the bit with their address on didn't. Weird that, huh? So I got this cheque for £50 in MY name, with a note and a photo written to ME. And of course David knows about it so tries to pressure me into sharing it with him. I didn't want to, never have done. He doesn't deserve it and is wrong to think he does. So tonight, because I still haven't shared it with him, he STOLE my £15.
Fuckign stole it.
The selfish little c-word. I really do hate that man.
I came home crying because I have just had enough of all of his fucking shit. He treats me like a dog and I am not having it, it's so unnacceptable. He has no right to steal my money and to talk to my staff about things they do not need to know. He is an appalling manager and I wouldn't recommend him to work in Mc Donalds ffs.
I was shaking with anger when I got home, but now I have seen sense, and I am going to approach this properly. I have written him an email saying that instead of having a chat about things, which would probably end in another argument, I'd like to do it over email so I can consider my answers carefully and not make any mistakes. I'm going to apply for two more jobs, one for two days a week and one for a couple of nights a week so that I have back-ups. And I am going to write down all of the things he does, just incase it's needed one day.
I kind of hope it is.
So after a good shift of me helping Stew and us doing a REALLY good job, with all the kitchen staff - so proud of them! - I left without saying goodbye to David cuz I really didn't wanna have a chat with him. This morning I come in to find that after I'd gone he'd been talking to Aislinn and Stew about 'what to do with me' - his favorite question of anyone. Fucking drives me mad. What to do with me? Try leaving me the fuck alone to do my job? He was talking to them about giving me a disciplinary, to which Aislinn totally shot him down and pointed out the technicalities of how he actually had to give me a bunch of warnings first, and Stew told him how amazing I'd been on hot partie and how he couldn't have done it without me - I love the staff there! David, after that, changed the subject... on to how I'd been sacked from my old job for doing the same things as I'm doing here.
First off, he has no right to be discussing any of this with my peers - indeed, people I manage.
Secondly - I was sacked because they used me. I had no opportunity to respond to any disagreements they found with me and hadn't caused any difficulty within the job, they just didn't need me anymore. David should not speculate into what he does not know.
So I started off today annoyed, and even more so when I saw the jobs list he'd written for me - with a 'please' as an after thought in a different coloured pen, and a job of "phone the woman I have a meeting with at 3pm and change it to a different day" - I'm sorry, I didn't know I was his fucking secretary?!
Today went well though, he had the day off so I managed to enjoy the majority of it, especially as Andy came in and I haven't seen him in AGES!! We came back to my house to take Barney for a walk and it was yummy :D Good times!
And then I went back to work. David arrived at 6pm to take over, and I asked where our tips were from Mothers Day. He said that it had worked out at £15 each, BUT I wasn't going to get mine because I hadn't shared out the £50 tip I got sent in November.
Now, let's recap.
On that night in November, I served a table of 9 men dressed in tuxes, clearly out to have a good time. They were a fantastic table, so much fun! We had a great night, AND I helped with the rest of a very busy restaurant as well. They left us a £50 tip on the night, and a couple of days later they called up work asking for my last name. David gave it to them, after working out why they wanted it, and days after that came a cheque from them to me. TO ME. The envelope, presumably, was dressed to me, but it's difficult to know because that part magically got shredded before I could see it. Strangely though, the bit with their address on didn't. Weird that, huh? So I got this cheque for £50 in MY name, with a note and a photo written to ME. And of course David knows about it so tries to pressure me into sharing it with him. I didn't want to, never have done. He doesn't deserve it and is wrong to think he does. So tonight, because I still haven't shared it with him, he STOLE my £15.
Fuckign stole it.
The selfish little c-word. I really do hate that man.
I came home crying because I have just had enough of all of his fucking shit. He treats me like a dog and I am not having it, it's so unnacceptable. He has no right to steal my money and to talk to my staff about things they do not need to know. He is an appalling manager and I wouldn't recommend him to work in Mc Donalds ffs.
I was shaking with anger when I got home, but now I have seen sense, and I am going to approach this properly. I have written him an email saying that instead of having a chat about things, which would probably end in another argument, I'd like to do it over email so I can consider my answers carefully and not make any mistakes. I'm going to apply for two more jobs, one for two days a week and one for a couple of nights a week so that I have back-ups. And I am going to write down all of the things he does, just incase it's needed one day.
I kind of hope it is.
Saturday, 13 March 2010
I've been there before and I deserve a little more
Wow!! Today has been HECTIC.
First off I got asked to arrive early, so I did. And then I had nothing to do for an hour whilst I waited for the top two rooms to be emptied of guests, after which I cleaned and re-made them for the next guests with Claire. And then another hour of waiting around for room 2 to finish being BUILT so we could clean that and make the beds and put in all the added extras we needed. But we had lunch before working on that ;] and THEN we had to wait about 2 hours to do the same to room one. However, we had guests that were meant to be arriving at 5pm to both room 1 and 2! Thankfully they all arrived in the right order, and late. So even though room 1 wasn't ready til 5.30pm we were okay!
To be fair I haven't exactly done a lot today, but what has been done in the building is incredible, everyone has worked so hard (with the exception of a grumpy few today!) to get this all done - when I arrived this morning I thought there was no way we would have anything done we needed, and I am so proud of the team that helped deliver it! Just wish it'd be recognised that I've also been waiting for years for this to happen, not just the volunteers that have been 'building' it. As David said to me earlier - it's their baby, they've been working on it for 7 years. I'm sorry, have I been sitting around here working for FUN for the last 6 years? No. I wanted to run the hotel. That's what I want my job to be. It's not like I haven't invested a lot in it, too!
And when he starts listening to other people, the better things will be. Or when he doesn't get his job when he applies for it. Oh lord I hope he doesn't. We'll be doomed. People management is NOT his strong point.
Oh well. Good times ahead, of what I wanted to be doing finally coming through. Except it means I'll be working 20 days straight. Bring on those few days off. Mmmm, drinking...
First off I got asked to arrive early, so I did. And then I had nothing to do for an hour whilst I waited for the top two rooms to be emptied of guests, after which I cleaned and re-made them for the next guests with Claire. And then another hour of waiting around for room 2 to finish being BUILT so we could clean that and make the beds and put in all the added extras we needed. But we had lunch before working on that ;] and THEN we had to wait about 2 hours to do the same to room one. However, we had guests that were meant to be arriving at 5pm to both room 1 and 2! Thankfully they all arrived in the right order, and late. So even though room 1 wasn't ready til 5.30pm we were okay!
To be fair I haven't exactly done a lot today, but what has been done in the building is incredible, everyone has worked so hard (with the exception of a grumpy few today!) to get this all done - when I arrived this morning I thought there was no way we would have anything done we needed, and I am so proud of the team that helped deliver it! Just wish it'd be recognised that I've also been waiting for years for this to happen, not just the volunteers that have been 'building' it. As David said to me earlier - it's their baby, they've been working on it for 7 years. I'm sorry, have I been sitting around here working for FUN for the last 6 years? No. I wanted to run the hotel. That's what I want my job to be. It's not like I haven't invested a lot in it, too!
And when he starts listening to other people, the better things will be. Or when he doesn't get his job when he applies for it. Oh lord I hope he doesn't. We'll be doomed. People management is NOT his strong point.
Oh well. Good times ahead, of what I wanted to be doing finally coming through. Except it means I'll be working 20 days straight. Bring on those few days off. Mmmm, drinking...
Wednesday, 10 March 2010
oh my life, things at work are just awful. and i am not exaggerating. we open tomorrow night (one day late, like that'll make a difference - DAVID YOU'VE HAD 6 FUCKING YEARS!!) and nothing is ready. I don't even wanna turn up at work tomorrow. Dickface just rang me up moaning about the internet which isn't working since I tried to put us wireless. He asked me why I bothered trying to do it. Er, hello?! Because it's all over our goddam advertising and we could be sued for false fucking advertising if we don't have it? cock fucker. I hate that man, I really do. Andy offered me a job tonight cheffing at the lion, I'm thinking I may have to take it at this rate. Same pay I'm on now. More fun. It's looking good. I fucking hate that man. I will not be spoken to how he treats me. Why should I be the one to blame? He has had MONTHS to sort all this fucking shit out and NOTHING is done on time and he has the audacity to fucking moan at me?
Fuck him. And fuck TWH.
Fuck him. And fuck TWH.
Tuesday, 9 March 2010
I’m a stitch away from making it, and a scar away from falling apart
Yes indeed, I have been absolutely crap at writing in here lately. Sorry!! Things have been SO hectic getting everything ready for the bedroom opening on Thursday - yes that's right, Wednesday got changed to Thursday. And yet I was a little surprised. I clearly haven't worked at TWH long enough... - so I've had no time to do anything, and as soon as I get back from work all I wanna do is watch naff TV and sleep.
I went to Kent this weekend for Jim's aunt's 60th birthday party, which was so fun!! I met pretty much Jim's entire family, from his Uncle's children from his previous marriage and their partners and kids, to his cousins wifes father-in-law. Mental! Great time though and SERIOUSLY gorgeous food. Mmmm...
Hangover on Sunday followed by a nice lunch in Spoons on Monday and a sudden desire to live in Rochester. It's bloody gorgeous - I've always loved it but now I can kinda see myself living there, especially now that his family are growing up. I can't deal with young children! So I'm thinking Rochester or another historical town near London for when we move back. Yay. Sadly, I also need to find more than a quarter of a mil haha. Yeah good luck with that one.
Leaving Jim was pants as it always is :[ Especially knowing that I won't see him for 4 more weeks, when his brother, sister and nephew come up to Gloucester for the first time for 4 days. Exciting times! Need to think of lots of things to do to keep the kids amused...
Today at work sucked, my boss keeps calling me ratty - it's become his favorite activity, I think. I apparently have a ratty attitude. Fucks me right off. Today I was explaining why I hadn't done some work - because he'd spent the whole week on the comp and I couldn't get in the office - and he said I was being ratty and needed to sort my attitude out! Now, I wasn't even saying anything with attitude til he said that. But today was the last straw. I stormed out and told him to fuck off haha. Attitude didn't turn up til he fucking accused me of it! Jerk.
But tonight things are better and I've been getting more things ready for work, doing it from home this time. Tomorrow will be a VERY busy day as pretty much nothing is done and Chris didn't turn up for work today - very worried about him after last Wednesday, I REALLY hope he's okay <3 (just rang him, his phone is on again now so maybe good news!) - so EVERYTHING has to be finished off tomorrow. I am talking, sinks being put in, tiles replaced, fixtures and fittings attached to the walls, lamps to be bought, all rooms to be tidied etc. It's going to be a seriously long day.
Rock on!!
I went to Kent this weekend for Jim's aunt's 60th birthday party, which was so fun!! I met pretty much Jim's entire family, from his Uncle's children from his previous marriage and their partners and kids, to his cousins wifes father-in-law. Mental! Great time though and SERIOUSLY gorgeous food. Mmmm...
Hangover on Sunday followed by a nice lunch in Spoons on Monday and a sudden desire to live in Rochester. It's bloody gorgeous - I've always loved it but now I can kinda see myself living there, especially now that his family are growing up. I can't deal with young children! So I'm thinking Rochester or another historical town near London for when we move back. Yay. Sadly, I also need to find more than a quarter of a mil haha. Yeah good luck with that one.
Leaving Jim was pants as it always is :[ Especially knowing that I won't see him for 4 more weeks, when his brother, sister and nephew come up to Gloucester for the first time for 4 days. Exciting times! Need to think of lots of things to do to keep the kids amused...
Today at work sucked, my boss keeps calling me ratty - it's become his favorite activity, I think. I apparently have a ratty attitude. Fucks me right off. Today I was explaining why I hadn't done some work - because he'd spent the whole week on the comp and I couldn't get in the office - and he said I was being ratty and needed to sort my attitude out! Now, I wasn't even saying anything with attitude til he said that. But today was the last straw. I stormed out and told him to fuck off haha. Attitude didn't turn up til he fucking accused me of it! Jerk.
But tonight things are better and I've been getting more things ready for work, doing it from home this time. Tomorrow will be a VERY busy day as pretty much nothing is done and Chris didn't turn up for work today - very worried about him after last Wednesday, I REALLY hope he's okay <3 (just rang him, his phone is on again now so maybe good news!) - so EVERYTHING has to be finished off tomorrow. I am talking, sinks being put in, tiles replaced, fixtures and fittings attached to the walls, lamps to be bought, all rooms to be tidied etc. It's going to be a seriously long day.
Rock on!!
Thursday, 4 March 2010
is someone getting the best of you?
Huh. Spent the night with Guy, except he was totally trashed off his face. Don't know how I feel now. Weird.
Think I need a lot of sleep...
And someone needs to vom somewhere other than all over the toilet/bath/bed :]
Think I need a lot of sleep...
And someone needs to vom somewhere other than all over the toilet/bath/bed :]
Tuesday, 2 March 2010
You will fly, and you will crawl; god knows, even angels fall
I have been feeling weird lately, kinda down but with absolutely no reason to. But it's weird because I wake up feeling so happy. The sunshine really is helping, a LOT, but I still feel like something's not quite right :/ Oh well!
Spent the day working, which was okay cuz I was mostly in the office with some a couple of tech guys sorting out our TV system - they were funny and good to chat to, and didn't mind my marilyn manson which is always good haha. I refuse to work in silence! Especially with my boss coming in and HUMMING all the time. Humming non-existant songs. That I can hear over a vacuum cleaner. Grr.
Anyway. I have spent the evening trying to finish off my blanket, except I have ran out of purple wool for the last 10 - 12 inches, so I'll work on that tomorrow. Also need to remember to send a wedding card to Aus!! Oops. Whilst I'm in the shops I may as well get black, grey and white wool for my next blanket - I need something to amuse me for the next two months!
For now I think I'm going to go and prep my wall for the painting I have planned, which will no doubt annoy my parents when they have to repaint when I move out, but nevermind :]
Spent the day working, which was okay cuz I was mostly in the office with some a couple of tech guys sorting out our TV system - they were funny and good to chat to, and didn't mind my marilyn manson which is always good haha. I refuse to work in silence! Especially with my boss coming in and HUMMING all the time. Humming non-existant songs. That I can hear over a vacuum cleaner. Grr.
Anyway. I have spent the evening trying to finish off my blanket, except I have ran out of purple wool for the last 10 - 12 inches, so I'll work on that tomorrow. Also need to remember to send a wedding card to Aus!! Oops. Whilst I'm in the shops I may as well get black, grey and white wool for my next blanket - I need something to amuse me for the next two months!
For now I think I'm going to go and prep my wall for the painting I have planned, which will no doubt annoy my parents when they have to repaint when I move out, but nevermind :]
Monday, 1 March 2010
you gotta have faith
YES!!! FINALLY progress can be seen at work!! AND I have gotten a bunch more bookings for next weekend, which means David definately HAS to pull his finger out and get everything bought and ready - he no longer has a couple days after our opening to get things finished. He has a deadline. He has a responsibility to his guests to get it done. And I will make sure we get there!!
Maisemore:
I dressed up a couple of our rooms tonight and took photos so they can finally go to press, so here is what has been achieved so far.. obviously not completely finished and we need to get art on the walls etc but it's something!!
Maisemore:
Llanthony:
EDIT:
I just had a thought that to show how fantastically far we have come these last couple of months, from finally deciding when to open to getting to how the rooms look today, I'd put up a couple of pictures of the building how it was last week, and has been for the past 5 years:
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