my head speaks a language I don't understand

I actually hate being busy. I can't cope with always having something hanging over me that's been organised. Like yesterday, I had work in the day and was expecting Aimee to come in at 4 to take over as I was the only person in the building at that point. David was out in a meeting til 4.30, when I really needed to be gone by. But Aimee was running late, and texted David, not me, so I didn't know. So I had to stay at work til 4.30 when David got back, and then rush home to shower and eat and get ready to leave for college at 5.30. I hate being rushed. It sucks. So when I got home at 9.30 it felt like I'd been going non-stop all day, just because I was forced to rush between the two parts.

And today I decided to go shopping for the afternoon, and be in work at 4.30. This would have been okay if I hadn't needed to go into work to pick up some money. And because I was there, David managed to find a job that just HAD to be done at that exact moment. Which meant I was late getting into town and then had to rush to shower and eat and get ready for work in time for 4.30. So now I feel like I've been rushed again.

Now, tomorrow morning I have been volunteered to paint the bedrooms at work. I have no idea how long this is going to take, but after doing that I have to work in the evening, from about 5 or 6. And for once tomorrow night we are busy. So this means I am going to be worrying all day that I'll only have an hour or so to shower and eat again ready for work in the evening. Also, we don't know if Stewart can come in in the day to cook, because he broke his hand a couple days ago and said Saturday would be when he's back, but now his phone's off so no one knows if he will or not. And if he's not, I'll get dragged into cold partie/waitressing in the day, scattered between painting bouts.

I very much dislike having a full day. I need my time at home to relax, not to be worrying about the next thing. Bleh.

This has been a really shit post but it's annoying me lol. I'm shattered now so going to watch me some Neighbours and Gordon Ramsay and do me muh blanket so I can FINALLY have my down time :]