How's it going to be?

realised tonight that I totally have far too many livejournal accounts - one for songs and lines i thought pertinent, one for uni, one for new zealand etc. Maybe i'll make this my usual one now. Assuming I can make it look good, or can be arsed to actually update it ;] I have lost my motivation completely recently, getting out of bed in the morning has become such an effort and it's something i hate, but it just feels so hard to do sometimes. Constrasting to this, when I get to work I feel really up for doing things and for staying there til it's all done; at least for the last 2 days i have, and that seems to be a lifetime right now. I also have LOADS of ideas for artwork running around my head, and I'm finding inspiration in so many places, but again there seems to be no time, and i know it's because i completely waste my time doing nothing, but i really enjoy doing nothing and mooching around for a couple of hours a day. it's so hard to make myself actually DO something. and yet i'm really excited about starting some of my ideas and working on them. though the lack of money isn't helping - i need to buy canvases and paints etc - but then of course if i went to work more i'd have more money to pay for these things. oh, the circle of life bites itself in the ass sometimes, i swear. went to a carol thing at gloucester cathedral tonight with my mum, first time ive been to a proper event there i think, it was well good. some girl from newent has a freaking awesome voice, made the hairs stand up on my arms - so beautiful. the choirs did really well too, i was impressed, as i was with the orchestra. was a good night, and enjoyed the nose around the cathedral at dark after too, it's interesting when i've only seen it in the day time before. i'm hoping to go to the carol service on december 24th that's held there, i think it will be really interesting to hear a proper choir utilising the acoustics like they're used to, exciting. i've started reading The Men Who Stare At Goats, and so far i'm not drawn in, but we shall see.. could be an interesting read followed by a nose at the film, though the films always suck after books. Looking forward to the comparison tho. Also loving Third Eye Blind right now - it's taken me about 10 years to finally listen to them, and I am regretting the years I have missed out on - awesome. They get me through the working day, with John Meyer and Something Corporate (another band i've missed out on for years, weird.) Oh well, bed time now I suppose - though I suspect I may well hang around for another few hours as normal - it would be nice to be on a regular sleeping pattern for once. Night!